A New Thing
I am digging deep into my belief systems
My very foundation –
the thing I learned,
the thing I wanted,
from the very beginning.
The very thing I have based every decision of my life on for 51 years,
discovered hidden and rotten
under every good thing I’ve attempted to build.
I kept wonder why my fabulous additions
kept falling down around my ears…
now I see the gaping ground fault,
the illusive, sinking sand,
which I must release and repair.
It’s very difficult.
It’s extremely frightening.
It’s supremely challenging.
My new thing goes against the grain
of everything I’ve ever thought,
since my very earliest childhood memories.
It’s been so very expensive.
All washing away
as I open my hands and allow
a new firm foundation
to be built
as the levee breaks
and carries the remaining sinking sand
they are a changing!